Thanksgiving

2011 was a great year for me. It really was.

 

As a person I'm not big on holidays, but I've always thought Thanksgiving is something that should be celebrated in more countries. Yes, there's the obsessive turkey-eating (at least in America), but besides that, Thanksgiving seems like the least selfish of all holidays (At least if you do it right). And I like the concept of that.

So on Thanksgiving, and again on New Year's, last year, I jokingly dared 2012 to be even better than 2011. As it turns out, 2012 went all bad ass and "challenge accepted". Of course there have been painful and difficult moments, but overall, I have never been happier than I have so far this year.

And so much have happened this year. That is something I really first came to realize yesterday morning, half asleep on the train. Especially the last few months, so much have been changing around me. And I have a distinct feeling, that there's even more to come. Which is both really scary and scary exciting.

In the end, I'm thankful for so much and so many, but to sum it up, I'm thankful to be alive and able to experience the beauties of life and share it with the people I love. Because my life would be nothing without my friends, and I could write a whole speech for each one of them, although I'm not going to. Sadly to say, I don't quite have the time for that.

But I wanted to at least say that much. Hell, 2013, I know you're still some time away, but good luck measuring up to 2012! Although, so far, it seems you already have a couple of advantages ;)

No matter what, it's definitely going to be interesting.


//Chii ♥

I'm sorry, I was drunk

I really don't drink too often. And when I do, I rarely get drunk. But I did last night. Now, I don't either ever regret getting drunk. I really think it's fun and all, and I don't overdo it, I only puked the very first time I got drunk. Usually I don't even get noxious.
But I regret some of the things I do while I'm drunk (No, it's not the same). When I wake up in the morning after being drunk, I'm never hungover. Hell, I'm hardly even tired. No, the awkward is what comes afterwards. See, it always turns out that I've texted or/and called a friend of mine and told them that I love them. Which, ya know, is really difficult to explain the next morning.

Especially, as it happened this time, the person I called is actually in love with me.
I mean, how do you tell someone, who calls you almost everyday to tell you that they love you, that "hey... I don't actually love you. Vodka just makes me a bit over sentimental. Sorry about that."?
Never in my life have I felt so stupid and guilt trippin'. And on top of that, I have to see him next week. And spend the night at his place. A part me is ready to cancel just to avoid facing him. Yet somehow I can't bring myself to do that.
Damn, I really fucked myself over this time, didn't I?... But what the hell are you supposed to do in a situation like this?
Of course it could be like the text in the picture... "for a drunken mind, speaks a sober heart"? But then where does that put me?
Fuck, why can't I just get hungover like everybody else, and avoid this shit? I mean, you didn't think I was gonna give up on drinking, did you? Why you so silly?


//Chii ♥


Ps: I also lost my keys. In the middle of fucking nowhere. And I don't have anybody's phone numbers, so I can't ask them to look for them. So yea... Definitely fucked.

Chii Chainsaw?

"I hugged a chainsaw today. People should hug chainsaws more often. They're very misunderstood creatures, ya know. They need a little love every now and then too."

Yes, I actually said this today. And yes, I did actually hug a chainsaw today. I felt bad for it, 'kay?!
I think I've been overworking myself lately. And I tend to get a bit loony when I'm overtired. Can't be healthy...
And people don't believe me when I say that I'm unstable. Geez.


// Chii ♥

People actually read this? o.o + J-popcon is gonna be epic!

People actually read this?

It just came to my attention, that there are actually people reading this shit? XD Apparently two of my friends reads my blog and actually misses my posts. I had no idea, whatsoever. It's kinda nice to know, though. Although this blog has always first and foremost been for myself, it's comforting to know that someone cares, in a way.
So, just because of that, I wanted to post something, but I didn't know what... So I'm just gonna post this tiny list I made about Jpopcon (Slightly updated), but decided not to post, since I thought it was too short.
Seriously, I have so many drafts in my posts overview, and most of them are random lists xD I like lists...
But girls, Kyo and Marti, and everybody else, for that matter, would you mind maybe commenting
every now and then, maybe? Just give your opinion or something? It would mean a lot.

Anyway, J-pop list! Here ya go!

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J-popcon is gonna be epic!

Oh yeah 8D Here are just some of the things I already know is gonna happen ^w^

• I'm gonna see so many of my friends :D like, close to everyone! Those I see often, those I see rarely, and those I hardly ever see :O ♥
• Me and Rei are gonna cosplay Usagi and Misaki 8D nope, not afterall oo' some day, though
• Apparently a friend of mine is going to bite my ear ôo I dunno, he's weird...
• So many hugs 8D and kisses ^3^ ♥♥♥
• POCKYYY!!! >o<
• Fangirling! :D always :3
• I'm finally gonna buy a yaoi bat ^w^ and some other random stuff :3
• I've also sworn to beat up several of people with said yaoi bat xD
• And I hope to get to play Werewolf again :O

I really can not wait >o< March, come sooner!!

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 Random site note :O

I actually might have another post or two to write... It's just that some of it I don't feel too comfortable posting. I mean, you never know who might find it? Been thinking a lot about that lately.
*sigh* Oh, what to do...

Random post + thank you Sachii

This is going to be quite random and useless, but I wanted to share this adorable drawing my friend Sachii drew of me and him n////n In like 15 minutes! o_o And of course the boy just can't realize that he's talented!

 

 I feel so incredibly flattered that he wanted to draw me! He even said that I inspired him!
And I have officially named him my new God XD

Love you Sachii-chan ♥ Thank you so much for this!

/// Chii ♥

bosei - Japanese summer 2012

No, I didn't go to Japan, although I wish. But what I did do turned out to be almost as great!
I went to Bosei's  japanese summer 1-weeks school. It was... amazing! I had Japanese everyday, and I love the language even more now. I got to sample out judo, tea ceremony, japanese films, japanese cooking (I made onigiri ^3^), calligraphy, japanese songs, and also a bit of manga (Which I, not surprisingly, failed at. I did draw a, if I have to say so my self, a quite succesful drawing of Noodles from Oishi High School Battle).
But more importantly, was the people I met there. They were all so funny, talented and just amazing! So many of us didn't want to go home earlier today. Made me want to go there for a whole year. Whiiich, they don't offer. They only offer 6 month courses, but if I had the money, I could just do 2 of those? :P AND, in the end of each course, they all get to go to Japan! OMFG, right? Hah, the Danish Design School and Håndarbejdes Fremmed will have to wait, I'm going to Bosei again, when I finish the Gymnasium! In three years T_T'
But really, it's a truly amazing school with a lot of options, and it seem to attract some quite interesting people. I'm definitely going to wish for the 1 week summer school course, probably every year for my birthday.
Some where talking about reunions, but since we all come from different parts of Denmark (And there was even one from America!!!), I have to admit that I'm a bit sceptical, but if it does happen, you know I'm going to be there, what ever it takes!

If you want to check out the school's site (And I really think you should), here's the link:
http://www.bosei.dk/

So I get to cross a few things off my Summer to-do list, but I'm still far from finished, and school starts in a week and a half. Yup, I'm screewed! But I'm still happy that I got to do the things I've done, and I'll try to do some more!

Much love,
Chii ♥

How I wish I could change

The summer in Denmark just doesn't seem to realize that we're closing in on mid-July, meaning instead of being blazing hot and sunny, it rains all the time. It's still warm though. When it's really bad it feels like being in a sauna while someone is dumping a bucket of lukewarm water on you.

But such weathers are perfect for curling up with a cup of tea and a book, movie or laptop. Since I'm starting Gymnasium in August, my dad finally let me get a laptop, which arrived Tuesday, so it would seem perfect, yes? Well, the answer is no. Why? Because I don't like tea.

I know it's a really silly thing to get upset about and obsess over, but I really want to like tea. It's warm, it's cosy and I love tea cups, tea pots, and the whole tea party-vibe. And I love just sitting with a big warm cup of tea. But the taste of tea disgusts me! And it makes me so sad. I try to be thankful for everything I have and am, but some things about me I just really would want to change. And the tea-thing is one of them.

The second is that I wish I felt like I could trust my self enough to be able to say that I'll love someone forever. A few weeks ago, me and my best friend had a big fight about this. She got really mad, because I said I was a afraid that I maybe one day wouldn't want to be her friend any more, because I've been through so much change during the last couple of years, including changes that made me lose a very dear friend of mine, who I back then truly thought I would love and be with forever.
The thing is not, that I don't trust the me now, but the me in the future. And because I don't want to tie-up this person, who I really don't know.

Thirdly, I'd also really wish that I was able to be more determined and able to stick with and accomplish my goals. I try over and over again, I set challenges to my self, in different levels of difficulties, but I fail almost every time. I need more backbone.

Fourth, I wish I didn't get so shy when I meet people the first time, because I always freak out, blush, and studder, if I'm even able to get a word out. I really think everyone I know's first impression of me was that shy, awkward, quiet, boring girl, which is so not me. But most people get so off put by that girl that I come off as too much to really get to know the real me, which is really sad. Basically I just wish I was able to be more open, and not completely shut off when I meet someone new.

Anyway, I think that's all for now..
See ya.

// Chii ♥

Summer to do list update

Almost a week into my Summer project, a few of my goals have been crossed out (Check the updated list here).

The first thing I did was #7: to clean up my closet. I think it looks quite nice?

Second, #28: I completely cleaned my room, although I don't have any pictures because I'm stilling missing changing my carpet.

Thirdly, I cleaned up my desk. Kind of a part of #28.

Before

After

I also did #18, and visited Sephora with Max. Didn't buy anything though, but it was quite exciting to see that they had Make Up For Ever.

And lastly, today I also completed #9, my roasting marshmallows over a fire with some friends at a meet. Don't have any photos to document that either because 1: Didn't think about it. 2: My friend Cat-chan had a hold of my camera all day, like usual XD Oh well.

That's all for now ^^ Take care ♥


// Chii ♥

Summertime!

I officially have summer vacation, and even though I loved my school and my classmates, and I'm looking forward to start at my gymnasium in August, I'm happy to get some time off. But, for once, I'm going to try get something productive out of the summer!
I'm starting tomorrow, Monday the 25th of June, and ending August 14th, since I'm starting school on the 15th.

My summer to-do list:

1. Take a lot of pictures. And be serious about the editing.
2. Have at least 1 day, which is all skin-care related. I want to use my skincare products, and try out some DIY's again.
3. Make new friends.
4. Go to as many meets as possible.
5. Go to BonBon-land with some friends.
6. Start, and complete, a DIY project.
7. Clean up in my closet. Get rid of some clothes.
8. Put up a My Little Pony "take one of these"-sign in random places around my town and Copenhagen.
9. Roast marshmallows again. Over a fire this time, instead of a candle.
10. Write a letter, put it in a balloon, and let it fly away.
11. Leave post-it notes with nice messages in random public places.
12. Blow a lot of bubbles.
13. Have a sleepover with someone.
14. Take a trip to Copenhagen. Go into as many stores and try on as much clothes as possible. Don't buy anything.
15. Play truth or dare with a group of friends.
16. Go at least a whole day without swearing. Take time.
17. Finish my Wreck This Journal.
18. Finally visit the Sephora at Illum.
19. Start doing my exercises everyday.
20. Loose weight.
21. Don't eat any sweets in a whole week. 
22. Sneak out late at night. Stay out for hours, but stay in the city (I'm thinking that I'm going to walk around town, play at the playground, and stuff like that). Without my parents noticing.
23. Go to the woods with Max. Act crazy and have fun.
24. Stay up for 24 hours straight.
25. Take a nap outside with my cat.
26. Get my old bike fixed up, so I can sell it.
27. Send letters or postcards to as many friends as possible, for no reason.
28. Clean up my room. Like REALLY clean. And try to keep it that way! 
29. Get a tan. I'm sick of my sickly pasty white skin that is the leftovers of my preteen wannabe-goth phase. It doesn't have to be a lot, just enough to get a slight tan line.
30. Walk down Strøget in my jammies.

I might add some more, when I think of them.


//Chii ♥

Give me wings to fly

Hello, Angels!

I am able to obsess over anything. Which is why I feel like I need a reason to share an obsession of mine, or else I could just go on forever. But today, my probably all time favorite YouTube make up artist (I rarely like to use the word "artist" for girls applying make up on YouTube, but this girl truly is), Klaire de Lys Art, who I've been following for a long long time now, put up this tutorial, and I fell in love.

I very rarely actually try to make something off make up tutorials, I just like watching them (I've only tried my luck with them twice before), but as soon as I saw this, I knew my life wouldn't be complete, until I had managed to make, master and rock this winged eyeliner!

When that'll be, is a whole other story.

 

Anyway, Klaire's video is going to be my jumping off point to tell you about my obsession with wings!

It's an obsession I've had as long as I can remember. When I was just a kid, it was about me wanting to be able to fly away from the pain and the loneliness. Now, when I'm older, it's about that, and so much more.

I could get into a very deep and emotional explanation and run-through, but I won't. That would take all day, and I have to leave home in 15 minutes. So I'm gonna choose to show you the easiest reason to why I love wings; they're an absolutely adorable fashion-accessory! 

 Not to mention all the other cute stuff you can get!

Truth

Photoshoot

My class were having a photoshoot on Wednesday, of the things we had been making in our last two subjects. I had two creations; a light lilac knit... I don't even know what it is XD But the teacher really liked it, and they rarely give us 10th graders credit, so I guess it's good?











The other is this cute Sailor Lolita/school uniform style dress I made. I really love it, and I can't wait till after our fashion show (June 14th) is over, so I can get to wear it!
Anyway, I made a collage of it in PicMonkey, so you could see it from both sides, but it has disappeared from my usb, so you'll have to deal with the uncut and unedited pictures.


I must also remember to credit my models, my classmates Camilla and Klara.
You should really check out some of Klara's blogs, she is such a sweet person and really creative! I'll link one of her tumblrs here, and then you can find the rest from there if you want to.


That's all for now.
Peace ☮

//Chii ♥



Ps: Have anyone else been noticing blogspot running really fucking slow lately? This post has been hell writing and editing, it's so slow and glitchy.

Life must be lived!

I don't know why, but I'm feeling so... refreshed and inspired today! All morning I've been looking for cool DIY's, and suddenly, I wanted to make a Things-I-Want-To-Do-Before-I-Die-list ^^ So here it is:

Before I die I want to:

• Attend a rave
• Have rainbow colored hair
• Own a full-custom mini-me styled Pullip
• Visit the Wizarding World of Harry Potter theme park
• Attend a Gay Pride parade
• Meet Kerli Kõiv
• Meet Destery Smith
• Visit the Hello Kitty theme park in Japan
• Go to Japan
• Cosplay at Harajuku
• Attend San Diego Comic Con
• Attend JPopcon in CPH
• Start working out (Not to get fit, but to get healthy)
• Get laser eye surgery
• Attend Playlist Live
• Be in love, truly and mutual
• Attend a Vans Warped Tour
• Be able to live and provide for myself doing something I love
• Be happy about my appearance
• Meet Drake Christofer
• Win a cosplay competition 

And most important:
Feel over-all HAPPY!

I don't know, that was all I could think of right now.

I also wanted to add a song to this, and PonPonPon by Kyary Pamyu Pamyu was the only one I could think of that was just remotely happy and random enough for this. Enjoy~

Exams and more Estonian music

Today we were preparing for the exams, and I had a complete breakdown. I cried so much I started shaking and hyperventilating, and when I was done, all my make-up was long gone. I even had to get someone else to take my shift at work and get my dad to come pick me up at school when it was all over, that's how horrible I felt. But I'm feeling better now, and Sunday, maybe also Saturday, one of my classmates is gonna come to my house and help me further along with it. <3
Also Saturday I'm going fabric shopping in Copenhagen for a dress I designed for the final project at school. It's pretty simple, even though the school I'm at prefers big and bold stuff, but it really was all I felt I was able to overcome at the moment. But it's gonna be really cute, trust me on that!

Music wise, I'm slowly getting out of only listening to Blood On the Dance Floor and brokeNCYDE (Still love them though). Lately there have been a lot of Paramore, Tokio Hotel and Panic! at the Disco in my YouTube recommendations, which is what I turn on every morning while I do my make-up and straighten my hair, so it's almost been like being 12 again, *giggles*.

But that's not the music I've been obsessing over. Nope, because since I just a few days ago found out I could get SoundCloud on my brother's old Android (Although I want to get rid of it as soon as possible; I might actually be able to afford my iPhone already in the end of june/start of july), I've pretty much only been listening to Unicorn Kid, and Kerli's Zero Gravity (There is simply no words to describe how absolutely amazing I think that song is!).

 

And speaking of amazing Estonian singers, Iiris's debut album is out now. It's so cool, I wish I could afford it! Luckily I still have YouTube.

So both negative and positive things going on. I really just want the bad things, exams and such, to go away RIGHT NOW! And then I want the really exiting things, the doll meet on the 19th, and my schools last fashion show, those might hurry up and be now! (Except the fashion show, since I haven't even begun sewing the dress, but then!...)



Anyway, I think that'll be all for now. Much love.

// Chii <3

Sakura Festival update!!!

OMG, I'm soooo happy right now, I'm still shaking! Although that could also be because I'm running low on sugar... anyway!

Day 1 was really great, I met up with Max at noon, and before heading for Sakura, we went shopping on Strøget. We ended up only being a Sakura for 2 or 3 hours, but I still got to see all that I wanted to see. I also bought an L plushie! ♥
Afterwards we went to eat at Jensen's Steakhouse, where we ended up sitting for about 5 hours xD
Btw; Max, I know you're reading this oo I fucking love you, so stop saying you feel like you mean less, 'cause you never will!

Day 2 was... omg, indescribable! I thought I was going to be alone most of the day, but I wasn't. Not for a second! I met so insanely many people, both people I've known for quite a while, and people I've never met before, but I just ended up spending a lot of time with them, because they knew someone I knew, or they knew someone who knew someone who knew we, or something like that xD Everybody was so insanely awesome and sweet, and I got so many hugs!
I also walked around with a tiny 'free hugs' sign and my WTJ, and asked everybody I hugged to write in it! The only problem about that, I realized on the train ride home, is that another page in the book tells me I have to give away my favorite page :( But I don't want to >w<

ARGH, I miss everybody so much! T-T Sunday has been one of the best days in my entire life!

// Chii ♥

Update: Sakura Festival + I'm wrecking a journal

Long time no see. I was going to make this two separate posts, but I ended up waiting too long, so I didn't (Thanks, Captain Obvious).

Anyway, tomorrow and the day after (Saturday and Sunday) I'm going to Copenhagen Sakura Festival! I'm so excited, I only learned about it in January, so it's obviously my first time. Anyway, Saturday I'm meeting up with my friend Max, she was so sweet to go with me, so I wasn't going to seem like a total loner both days xD Also, I'm going to meet up with two people I've recently met online; a girl, to whom I've sold my taeyang Damon's stock eyechips to, and some gay guy I've been chatting with for the last... hour and a half or so? xD Both seem really nice :3 I think they'll both be there both days, but I'm not sure.
But I'm bringing my SLR both days, so be expecting a lot of pictures :D

In other news, I bought a Wreck This Journal by Keri Smith a few weeks ago, and it's really fun :D My original idea was to post a picture of all the pages as I made them, but I think I'm only gonna share my favorites for now, and when I'm done then make one huge post with them all. I try to limit my self to only do one page a day, so it'll last longer than a week xD Still, I wanted to show you a few pictures from my current progress with it, but they're on a different computer, so maybe some other time.


See you <3
// Chii

PS: OMG, all I can think about is Sakura Festival!!!!!

Positive news

Omg, really?
Yeah, I know I come of very negative, so I wanted to take this post to say a bunch of positive stuff ^^

1. My new shoes that I ordered from eBay came last week, and they're so cute and comfy! Yay for that!
2. I've gotten a job in Bilka Hillerød, so we'll see how that goes when they open!
3. It's going pretty good in school, I've been getting really high grades lately! And currently I'm also having machine knitting, and it's really fun and interesting, and that's going quite well too!
4. It's kind of sad, because tonight is my last photographing class this year, and so is sewing class on Monday. But I feel like I've learned a lot in photographing, and I'm really proud of what I've made in the sewing class. I made a china-style dress, my rainbow sweater, and I'm almost done with a pair of high waisted shorts, that I designed myself, so much yayness for that!
5. My Hello Kitty glasses came today! Omg, SO kawaii! ♥ And much sooner than the seller told me to expect, yay!

That was a lot of 'yay' xD I think that's all for now? Something positive happening in your life? Let me know ♥


//Chii ♥

Dear Hello Kitty, I give up

When I was younger (11½-14), my at the time bestfriend/semi-lesbo girlfriend/demi-god (I know, we had a truly messed up relationship, also adding the fact that we lived a 6 hour drive apart) convinced me that Hello Kitty was evil and trying to take over the world. Basically, I took everything she said back then as 100% truth, and the Hello Kitty thing is one of the things that to this day still has me all messed up. From the age 12-15, I seriously would jump back in terror every time I spotted something Hello Kitty. It was horrible, since so many of my other friends, then and still, love Hello Kitty and constantly tried/tries to get me to love her too.

 Well, I think the day has finally come.

I was watching the newest Bubzbeauty video on Youtube (Yes, I love my Bubbi ♥) and fell on love with her Hello Kitty glasses! I just had to go Google to see if I could find any... And I did on etsy, from GuiltyFreeCandy. Aren't they adorable?! And the bows are changeable, so I can color correct them to my clothes, omg! ^w^ I already ordered them, I just couldn't help myself!

I really wanted them with black frames, like Bubbi's, but then the whiskers would have to be white, and I did not want that! And all the ones I could find other places with both black frames and whiskers didn't have glasses, and that just looks stupid, I hate that.
But all in all, I'm really happy with my find, can't wait 'til they get here!!

Oh, and let's add some Blood On the Dancefloor to make everything lovely creepy ♥

// Chii ♥

A splash of color

As you can see, I redecorated the site. I wanted something with more colors, because I love them, and because my blog is called Kaleidoscope Unfolded. And what's the fun with a kaleidoscope if you don't have any colors?

I also want to share a song with you. Not sure why, just feeling like it. It's an old clip, and an even older song. It's one of my favorite singers and greatest inspiration in life, Kerli, doing a cover of Somewhere Over the Rainbow.
Please let me know what you think of her and the song, as well as the new layout.

Peace out ☮
// Chii ♥

I'd wish

... I had someone to be my shelter from the world. Someone who lived nearby, and to whom I could run to every time I felt like giving up. Someone who would let me sneak in through their window in the middle of the night, so our parents wouldn't notice. And when their parents would ask them if they knew where I were, they would hide me in a closet or under the bed, and lie, because they believed I shouldn't have to go home if I didn't want to.
I'd wish, oh how I'd wish.

My projects: 1; Comfy Rainbow (Part 2+3)

Alright, part 2! Except... I'm already done... yea. Sorry about that.
I really wanted to do like weekly updates, but what happened was that I got really stressed with school, homework, friends, my parents, random stuff, and more homework! I'm going insane, seriously!

           Anyway, here's what it looked like Thursday.




I used pretty much all  day Saturday sewing it together, and this is how it looks now.
It's a lot longer that  it was supposed to, and looking back, I didn't really need the pink...

Truer view of the colors

But I'm still very satisfied with the result, it's so rad and comfy!
And, including the knitting needles (lols, I had to look that word up on Google, so I don't know if it's right) this shirt has cost me 281DKKR, which is about 28£ (British) or 56$ (American), very lazily calculated (100DKKR=~10£=~20$). Which is pretty cheap, I should think.

What do you think?

we ♥ it

I actually made my w♥i account long time ago, but I never got around to using it. Until today. Just wanted to let you know. I really think it's a great and truly interesting site, even though it's so simple.
What do you think? Do you use it?
If you want to check mine out, my username is Xeroxicide


// Chii ♥

My projects: 1; Comfy Rainbow (Part 1)

Alright, now to my ongoing project. This Saturday I finally started a projects I've been wanting to go for months! A rainbow sweater!
I knitted for a few hours on Saturday, and then almost all day this Sunday. I know I'm a quite slow knitter, but hell, I'm a newbie! Also, since this is only the back piece, I obviously need a lot more yarn. Oh well, hope I get my new credit card soon, since I have absolutely no cash.
Anyway, since I'm such a newbie at knitting, my teacher and I agreed, that I'd just make two separate pieces for the body and then sew them together. So there's a long way to go, but I'm very excited. I'll keep you posted!


// Chii ♥

Projects?

Congrats blog, you've been upgraded!
Yeah, instead of just being a way of trying to keep me relatively sane, you are now also a blog of my projects.

Now, first I'm going to show a project which was finished on Tuesday, but it's quite special to me, since I made it out of 12 fucking mens shirts from a vintage store. And I actually really ended up liking the result.


On Wednesday night it was in a charity-fashion show called Freestyle Restyle. Sadly, since I didn't get to take pictures of the final version of the dress before or after it went on our super-short catwalk, and because I had to be backstage and dress the model for every outfit she had to wear during the show and , I had to have my dad take the pictures, which he, obviously, really wasn't good at.
Sorry about that.

At the moment the dress is being showed off at a store in Copenhagen called Fisk. I have already made aware of, that I want to buy it myself, but I don't actually know when I'll get it. But when I do, I'll try to take and show you some better pictures.


// Chii ♥

Two sentences I hate with all my heart

I know I've been very hateful lately, but this is the only way I can truly get it off my chest for good. The reason why I'm bringing these two sentences up, is because I've heard them uncountable many times today.

The first is, "[it] can't always be perfect,". The reason why I hate this sentence, is because when someone says it, they say it in a such obvious tone, that they truly think I've several times before made something perfect. Which I haven't. Never. Not once. It's like they think I'm a perfectionist, but I'm not. I long to be a perfectionist, but I fail every time. Which is why I with every project I start, I strive to reach perfection, and get depressed when I fail. It's not because I'm used to things being perfect, but because I've never made anything that came out perfect.

The second, "[isn't that] neglect", I've been hearing more and more since I started 10. grade. I am very well aware of the fact that my parents tend to neglect me. But people who think this need to be aware, that it started around the time I turned 1. And only got worse and worse after my brother was born when I was 1½. And because of that, I'm used to it, and has always been. Therefore, it's really not difficult for me to not give a fuck. So just let it go.

// Chii ♥

I hate limited character boxes

Seriously. Now, blogspot's music box can't handle my capacity of favorite artists. It's so fucking annoying! The only place I have left that, so far, haven't turned out to have a character limit is YouTube. So I suppose that that's just one more reason to adore that site.
It just really pisses me off! Music is my life, and so much more, and by putting a limit on that box is like telling me "Hey!... We care more about not having to improve this site than we do about your life. K bye."
Makes me wanna punch someone in the face! But I don't, because I have music. The thing you say I can't share with people, is the only thing that can calm me down when you tell me stuff like that. Ironic, huh?
Think about it blogspot. And every other website that has boxes with character limits.

// Chii ♥

PS: Fuck you

Doodles

I doodle. A lot. On everything. And everybody. I used to have old notebooks filled with my doodles, but I lost them when I moved into the garage.
Anyhow, this one is from Tuesday night. It's kind of a look into what went through my mind while I was in photo-class at the youth school. Obviously, I wasn't thinking a lot about photographing xD
Anyway, when I doodle on paper, I for unknown reasons start in the middle, and then work my way around the middle in circles.

// Chii ♥

I hate when things are simple and so plain...

Before

After

... so I bedazzled my headphones :P I know it's a little silly, but hell, what do I care?  I think they're pretty cool. I still don't have anything on the left side, but I'm working on figuring out what to make.


The titel is a quote from the Skye Sweetnam song Unpredictable

// Chii ♥

Dolltalk

Very old picture taken by me

I looove dolls ^^ Always have. But no, not like Baby Born (Never had any of those), Bratz (Never had any of those either) or Barbie (Did have a few of those though). No, I'm talking about collectable dolls. In my case specifically ball-jointed dolls and Pullips. At the moment I just have one BJD, but she's the only one of that model in the world and she was made specially for Kerli's Tea Party video, even though you don't really get to see her in it too well (But you can see her out in the far left side at 3:16)... I really wanted the Mad Hatter (The one with the big orange-red hair) and I also considered Frieda (Straight blue hair, eye patch, big crown), but they were sold almost immediately. The one I've got is called Bird In Hand, and I named her Akiko, meaning "autumn child" in japanese, partly because I recieved her in the fall. According to Paulette from Goodreau Dolls (The woman and company who designed and made them) she was one of Kerli's personal favorites, but I don't know if this is actually true. Not that I don't trust Paulette, I really do, she seems to be a truly honest and sweet person.

Also, which this post is supposed to be more about, I have two Pullips and one Taeyang, which is the male version of Pullip. The Pullip on the left is the model Lunatic Queen (named Kyoki, meaning "madness" in japanese, at least according to Google translate), the one on the right is the model Eos (named Adelaide, or "Ada", after Ada Lovelace and the character Ada from the Morganville Vampires series) with a new wig and eyechips. The Taeyang, in the middle, is the model Lunatic White Rabbit (named Damon, partly after the character Damon Salvatore from the Vampire Diaries, partly because I just really like that name and felt it was right).
Now, the reason why I'm telling you this, is because I'm making new changes to them, and I didn't want to post it all on my flickr. Here's a list of the changes I'm planning on making.

Kyoki

• New wig, since her stock wig isn't in such good condition anymore, due to being transported a lot back and forth when I go to meets. I don't know what kind of wig I'm looking for for her though.

Ada

• New wig, again. The green wig is not Eos' stock wig, I sold that to my friend Alberte, but I'm not as happy with this wig as I thought I would be. It's pretty, but it just doesn't give her the right look. Luckily, my friend Machi wants to buy it from me, when I find a new wig for Ada, so she's actually looking for blue wigs for her for me xD Although actually, I've been thinking of getting her a red or pink wig , and then get a blue wig for the Papin that I will (hopefully) soon purchase instead.

Damon

• New wig, since I never really liked his stock. I'm already pretty certain which one. It looks kind of like his stock, but it's a lighter color and a lot shorter.
• New eye chips. Planning on keeping them red though. I just want some others, since I think it looks like he's staring a bit too much.

And that's pretty much all. Now, if you're not a doll person, don't worry, I won't constantly post about dolls. If I really feel like I have to, I will, but don't count on it. But if you are interested in dolls, just in general or specifically mine, you can follow me a my doll-obsession on my flickr.

See you ♥
// Chii